The Wizard of Oz

Update: I'm here this semester. Next is still up in the air, but we'll see... I'm changing my major, but to what I'm not sure.

I did some thinking yesterday. This has all been building for some time now, and you know what, it's time to do something about it. MIT's a great place. I love what it has to offer me. But really, I'm just not smart enough to take advantage of the cool stuff and do well in classes while mantaining what I'd like to call "a college experience". It's too easy for me to get lost here. I'm not accountable to anyone. I can do whatever I want and it only hurts myself, which I don't mind since I chose to do it in the first place. But that logic's starting to cost too much money. It's not worth it to stay here. I hate my major, and the only thing I'd change to is Political Science... but yeah. That sure isn't engineering. I don't know. I'm leaving.

Joe P.izzle and I are frontin' in the MIT arcade, yo.



Now who let those dogs out? worrrrrrrd.

Current Mood: THIS IS NOT JOE P. POSTING

Things are good so far. This year is doable.

Keep me in mind as the weather changes, though, hm?

I miss you guys.

Overview:

Got to MIT. Moved into my lovely new sorority house. Met a good amount of people. Had a lot of fun, despite occasional glimpses at loneliness.

School starts. I'm still doing well... until, day 3. You know what? I still don't like it here. The sun is shining. I know plenty of people. Workload hasn't gotten too hard yet, though I still feel somewhat behind. I just... feel lied to.

• The best thing about MIT is the people.


• Living across the river helps me separate my personal life from my school life.


• College is fun.

Just so you know, the arcade near me recently upgraded to ITG2.

EDIT BY JOE P.:

Wow, I still can't believe she didn't change her password yet! XD

[I guess you list] things you enjoy, not because you have to but because you want to, even when no one around you wants to go out and play.
*What lowers your stress/anxiety level?
*What do you love to do that makes you smile, even when no one else is around?
*Make a list of five, and post it to your journal...
and then tag five friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1. BitTorrent
2. A witty book (Calvino's a good place to start)
3. Good club music, late at night, with a strobe light
4. Nerd-shopping
5. Coffee in the rain

No tags here, since all my friends have already gotten this..;; Well, except Joe needs to be tagged again... ^_~

Current Music: Daft Punk - Discovery

I haven't been very good about keeping up with people here. LJ was never my thing, but now it's becoming hard to even remember to check them. I guess I have an excuse, seeing as I was out of the country till Monday night. I feel bad, though, losing touch with everyone. Sorry about that :(

In other news, I never stopped needing a friend last semester. MIT gets me down really easily, and I'm not even sure why most of the time. I'm looking into possible medical causes now, because I just seem a bowl full of problems these days. ..Or full of excuses :-/

So I'll give it another semester and see how that works out. See if it's worth it. My mom at lunch said she thought our family was too dysfunctional.. that I didn't know how to interact with normal, happy, hard-working people. Perhaps she's right.

All I know is I was lonely, and it was gray all the time, and I found the work less than engaging, despite having a good amount of it. I feel the optimism of next semester being sucked from me. I'll get it back by getting smoothies with my neighbor :)

Current Mood: objective

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal

Major props to my alter ego for creating a LEET HAXX0R``!!2311 set of icons for my new journal, in addition to an enlightening user info page. I didn't even know I liked yaoi, wow! i'll have to remember that next time ^_^

Joeeee, let me know when we're going clubbin' ^_~ even if it has to wait till next year... :~((

Current Mood: loved

Note to self... Change my password so that Joe P. doesn't randomly post in my journal.

I mean..

>.>

I LOVE YOU BABY, YES ITS TRUE. JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE TO PROVE. BELIEVE IN ME... OH BABY... I'M NEVER GONNA MAKE YOU CRY! ALL I WANT IS YOU... HERE WITH ME. LOVE, LOVE IS THE MAGIC WORD FOR US TO SHARE. TOGETHER NOW... WE CAN SEEEEE THE LIIIIGHT! MEMORIES OF YESTERDAY... DO THEY ONLY HURT YOU MORE? MEMORIES OF YESTERDAY... I'LL BE YOUR SHIELD... I'LL BE YOUR SHIELD... WHEN YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME YOU CAN BE IN MY PARADISE COME TO TOUCH MY HEART CAUSE ITS THERE FOR YOU TO KEEP WHEN YOU SY YOU LOVE ME YOUR IN MY PARADISE I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU YOU WILL SEE....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................WHEN WHEN WHEN YOU SAY YOU LOOOOVE ME! TELL ME GIRL THAT YOU LOVE ME! I WANNA HEAR YOU SAY. I WANNA HEAR YOU SAY! I WANNA HEAR YOU... SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!